Monday, January 18, 2010

Today I was gasping for air

I come from the second largest country in the world (in terms of land mass, not population size): I’m accustomed to wide, open spaces. Well, okay, I come from the suburbs, but, more or less, I’m accustomed to large things. Tall buildings (in which I lived), large-scale appliances, wide roads. These days I find myself in a tiny country, with lots of people and almost exclusively small spaces.

When Asya would send me photos I’d always comment on how there were so many people in them; she seemed never to be alone. I envied those gatherings, the comraderie that I saw in those photos. The photos I sent her where often void of people or showed just me in front of something I thought worthy enough to have photographed. I studied the difference in our environments: in those wide, open spaces, I felt alone, isolated, surrounded by trees instead of friends. In her spaces, I saw the social environments I craved.

Now I find myself in the places in those photographs Asya sent. I am surrounded by more people than I care to know and some days, the congestion is suffocating. I yearn for wide, open spaces where I can breathe (in smoke-free environments, no less) and hear the wind whistling through the trees instead of people speaking into their cell phones.

Don’t get me wrong: I don’t regret moving here. And I realize this feeling of being suffocated in small cities is not exclusive to Yerevan. It’s just today, on this unusually warm, snow-less January Monday, I felt there wasn’t enough air to breathe in...

I think a trip to Dilijan or Tsakhadzor is in order..


  1. Go to Karabagh. It's practically empty but very beautiful.

  2. Thanks, Richard :-) I actually have plans to go to Shushi in the next couple of weeks... I've never been and a trip to Karabakh is most definitely in order. Thanks for commenting on my post!

  3. Hey there,

    Noticed you in my twitter and was glad to discover your blog. Nice to meet you!

  4. Nice to meet you too! Will definitely keep an eye out for your tweets and blog updates :-) I haven't been so good myself (on the updating front), but hoping to change that soon...